Naïve thinking doesn’t pay off. Being practical might be better after all.
Learning is a lifelong journey. I am in the rocky sea of these long and dreadful one. On the bright side, being aware of that is the first step to change. If you are unhappy with where you are, the worst thing you can do is “inaction” or, in the words of my colleague → leave it to fate. That wouldn’t work out well and might even result in more regret.